One
of the deepest challenges my vocation affords me is to articulate “why I
believe in church” to lots of people. On airplanes, in elevators, at parties,
during Uber rides, even waiting in line at Walmart. Now, my usual audience is
those who A. have never engaged a faith community OR B. got bored with the
whole experience of organized religion, OR the most unfortunate, C. those who’ve
been burned by the church or a churchy-person. Now, you are all sitting in a
pew on a Sunday morning- so you’re not the most likely crew of folks to receive
the “why church” conversation from me. But I suspect you’ve had your doubts
too.
Here’s
the truth: I have doubts of my own. 3 years ago this January, I found myself
ready to give up on organized religion. I was ending my first ministry call to
Columbia UCC, I was hurt and exhausted by the experience, disillusioned might
be a good word. As I faced a future with
no ministry call in sight, I told AJ I might be done serving a church. In fact
I considered taking a full-time faculty position at Presentation College. But
here’s the thing, I never felt my call to ministry was over; yet spiritually
drained and frustrated by layers of inner-church conflict, I was over organized
religion. Or so I thought.
Now
if you’re following my timeline in this story, that wasn’t too long before I
accepted a call to be your minister. Here’s what happened in the six short
months of respite I had from ministry. Even though my feelings told me to be
done, I knew in my spirit that I was being called to give church one more
chance. To say yes one more time to serving the body of Christ, brokenness and
all.
Here’s
why: I realized it doesn’t matter that we have baggage, (we all do, every
church too); it matters how we manage it. Jesus is calling us all to own
our brokenness and to sort it out together. No abandoning the work to someone
else. No throwing our hands up and saying “We’re flawed, so we’re not worthy of
grace, let’s just quit!” No, we own who we are, baggage and all, SO THAT we
might enter into ministry with conviction of our need for Christ.
John
the Baptist dismisses his calling because of his baggage too: “But Jesus, I’m
flawed, you don’t want me to baptize you.” Jesus says, “Yes I do. I need
your partnership; help me fulfill my righteousness on earth.” The big shift in
John’s life sounds so subtle, “John consented.” That’s it! When he says
YES and baptizes Jesus, the world is forever changed. People like John the
Baptist, people like you and me are given the ability to become co-creators
with Christ; That’s my answer to “why church,” because I want to say Yes
to being part of God’s grand narrative, building a more loving world. Yes! Yes.
Isaiah
foreshadows well this new world- and does so by citing how powerful God’s
creative force truly is: “Thus says God, the Lord, who created the heavens and
stretched them out, who gives breath to the people upon it and spirit to those
who walk in it: I am the Lord, I have called you in righteousness, I have taken
you by the hand and kept you; I have given you as a covenant to the people, a
light to the nations […] See, the former things have come to pass, and new
things I now declare!”
Being
in worship is the place I’m most convinced that God is at work making me new
again. Me, you, the church. We’re not done growing yet! It’s here,
following God’s call on my life that I am best able to sort through my baggage
and be reminded that God’s love is bigger than any of it. Little by little, as
I release my failures in favor of God’s grace, my attempts to co-create a loving
community with Christ become more faithful and fruitful. I become more
whole.
And
you, my friends, are a significant part of my journey. I hope this faith family
is significant in your spiritual journey too. As we begin a new year, I wonder:
What do you need made new again? What baggage do you need us to carry in
prayer? Let’s celebrate that we are people of resurrection hope, and every new
beginning is marked by an invitation to co-create a loving community with
Christ.
As
I think back to how much has changed for me over the past 3 years, I am amazed
at the power Christ has to make things new again- like my enthusiasm for
serving a church! 😊For
real, I’m so excited about what God is doing here, that I now consider it a
deep privilege to share why I believe in church with anyone who will
listen! 😊
This
call, though, this life of ministry is NOT only for those who have “pastor” in
front of their name. When you love your neighbor as yourself, when you offer
compassion, when you are quick to listen and slow to judge, when you support
others through hard times- you too are saying YES to God’s church, where we
affirm our baptism as Christ’s beloved siblings, with whom God is well-pleased.
So
here’s what I want to know: what are you and I going to co-create with Christ
this year? A new outreach ministry? Could we dive deeper into the mysteries of
Scripture? Maybe we’ll double-down on feeding the hungry and providing support
to those who are facing homelessness. You might personally find a renewed sense
of purpose- and decide to pursue that idea right here in this church! I am more
committed than ever to church, because I see the growth of spirit at work here.
And that’s because of you. Because of us. Because of Christ calling us together
as church. And whatever new ways we choose to live into our baptism, I’m 100%
in. Let’s co-create something beautiful in 2020, in Jesus name, Amen!
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